My heart aches like it never had.
A student's worst nightmare... Scarce resources. Like, duh...Money.

I hate it when Economics terms and principles are irritatingly real.

This past few weeks i've been thinking of place to continue my studies. A part of me tells me to stay. But another part of me tells me to venture to the land down under. Yeah, it sounds typical of Malaysian students to go there...but i hate to admit it, they do have a lot to offer. The experience there is simply unique. They're a mass land being isolated from the rest of the world. New Zealand included. Its amazing. They're uniquely themselves. For example, clothes and fashion trends. They can't be following the trends of 4 seasoned country in the northern hemisphere. When it's summer in Australia, it could be snowing like mad in Paris. So. Yeah those little things make the whole experience different.

The fun part about choosing where to go to is fun. Think of all the choices in the world you have. From Bachelor in music where u learn how to do recording and producing CDs and DVDs... to doing Criminology for your Degree. Everytime i find a course which seems interesting, my heart races with excitement. I'd daydream how my life would be...in Curtin Uni. A daily dosage of day dreaming about it actually makes me feel motivated to achieve my goals.

Motivation is great. It moves you. Now comes the tricky part. Being financially fit to live and study there. It then struck me like a thunder bolt and i realised that this whole thing is irritatingly real. How i wish i can wish upon a star tonight, for bundles and bundles of cash to pay fo my family's expenses for life...hmm. Wouldn't that just be wonderful? I could apply for the Astro scholarship. But the thought of thousands of people applying for the same spot is terrifying. Imagine hundreds of smart fries like Alisson signed up for the scholarship? I wouldn't stand a chance! But i would still take a whack at it.

Hmm. We're worried like mad about education. Imagine all the other problems we will be facing in the future. Car Loan(s), House rents/loan(s), taxes, EPF, Living expenses, supporting children... I pray to god he will guide me through it all. I pray for all. Part and parcel of being human. And being adults.

"Growns ups are suppossed to have all the answers...but we don't.
We're still learning..."
Phill Lewis


Cheers to a bright future!