Happy Deepavali.

Today i bought this really cute punjabi outfit for only 45 bucks. Its cotton, and in brick red, and it looks gorgeous. Not to mention that its really comfortable. Most Punjabi suits are, but this particular one's material is really soft. I love it. Thats what they call "value for money"! They had this bazaar for Deepavali outside the KL Central's carpark. And they had all sorts of indian stuff...from mehendi, to sari's to Bindis to the murukus...and the differesnt type of textures, taste, and smells of the indian culture. I love places like Bazaars, flea markets, and sunday markets. You never know what you'll find... I find it adventurous. haha.

The Sungei Wang Plaza has a great deal of funky printed tee-shirts being sold. I saw this one tee, it had " YOU SUCK! ( and i hate you)" on it. pretty cute. i should wear that infront of that bitch in college, damn it. But my mom saw it, and she said. "NO...such nasty and dirty words...i don't like it..." alaa... i nak lah. But I still love the "STONED" tee me and Aida saw at OU... thats the best. But not for freakin 75 bucks, its not.

I'm pretty sleepy right now. *yaaawwnnn* I shall continue this crapola tomorrow!~

The Body Shop...I like.

I had fun, just now hangin out with Radd and Aida. We Buka Puasa in some Thai Restaurant in OU...i think its called "Just Thai"...the food was great and the pricing was reasonable, too. I had this dish, called Coconut rice, with Papaya salad with fried chicken. It was G-r-e-a-t! In malay, its known as Kerabu betik muda, i think... i love kerabu. Its fresh, sour, and spicy too. Full of flavours. Like me! I'm full of flavours! haha...They say...You are, what you eat...haha.

After dinner, we went walking around OU...the new wing and the old wing. There was this one shirt with the word "STONED" printed on it...IT WAS SOOOOO cool... i wanted it... but it was like, 75 fuckin bucks. to hell, with that. It was prolly cost abt 20 bucks or less for the shirt, without profit. shit. But it was soo nice.

Then Radd had to chiow early, at abt 9 something...then Aida and I went around and look at stuff at The Body Shop. I love that store. The products are so pampering. Anyway, i love it even more, because of the offers they have. Like, i bought liquid eyeliner with a lip balm worth 45 bucks, and aida bought a lipstick worth 30 bucks, and i could redeem 35 bucks worth of products...So i redeemed like, a shade of lipctick, and a bar of Shea soap...hah...i love it. What a night. Im such a girl, these days.. oh dear. Must be the hormones..whoa..freaky.

Well, I wish Char could've come along, and be all kecoh choosing the colour for Aida's lip colour...haha...not like she won't be kecoh when not choosing one's lip colour...but hey... choosing lip colours are fun..haha. Only a shade different, can make you look sexy, chic, glamorous, or sweet... cool, huh! omg, see?! im turning into a girl!

Somebody save me! A damsel in distress...damn it.

LA la LA

Yay! I may have a chance to go to the botb at HELP's this november 6th. I hope the plan goes well.

Yesterday, i went out for buka Puasa with my parents and a family friend...And boy, they're real smart people. You can listen to how they speak...so refined. And well-behaved, too. HAH. Not that we're not. haha. But whatever. They were such a good company.

I'm planning to go to One Utama for buka puasa today, with Aida and Rad... I wanted to meet up with Char as well, but she said her mom wasn't doing to well...... so..... she can't go. alaaa. I'll still convince her anyway. heeehe.

Its raining, its pouring,
The old man is snoooring.

<3

I'm listening to "everlong" by the Foo Fighters. Its pretty an emotional song, but its not sappy. At least, I don't think so. The level of Sappiness in me is pretty high, so this song is pretty mild. haha.

I had a chat with Char yesterday, and booooy, she was pissed. Someone broke in her car (neatly btw..) and her phone and money got lost....even the 70 cents left in the coin box pun, kena sebat. Im thinking these are the sleekest drug addicts around town, lah weih. Chun. It was fun talking to her again... especially when we haven't really talked to each other for sooooooo so long. I think it's been like, more than 3 weeks. Being sarcastic towards each other and everything. Really funny. We're planning to meet up somewhere this week somewhere near her town, now. Maybe One Utama,lah. Oh my god, She has helped me A LOT! when i was having my emotional breakdown, when i was lost, when arvin and i wanted to sing for the D&D(That jack ass.), When i was such a nervous wreck to even try to talk to a certain someone...oh my god, she's awesome. Hah!..i owe you one! .....well, and your ring i broke, and a lunch too. Damn it.

Today I will be going to Dee's place, and draw Brandon Boyd's tattoo on her arm like his... except for we'll be using henna. The last time i did this shit, was on Aza's arm, and that was like, a looong time ago. I did it twice on his arm. Berangan jadi Boyd ah. haha.

I really feel much better, right after talking to Char and Fudge. Oh my god, i feel somewhat loved and cared for again. I feel like a million bucks! Now, If only that person would start having a normal conversation with me...

But hey, whatever. I'm thankful enough to have friends like them. much love! <3

Self Destruction.

whoa...Pink? Pink , makes me go, like, all ....blonde.

Shit, I've lost it. Thanks to my new friend, Boredom. Say " hi, boredom", everybody... see, what i mean? gile. Infact, my brain is as numb as my butt after sitting for hours at the same spot. I somehow feel, seriously, no one needs me, man. no shit. Its like, I am always used as their Back up plan. Oh, no one to bring? ask la hilly. IM ALWAYS left out. I dunno, i think im just confused, man. I love my friends, but do they love me? I know I always complain, but its only because i need to let it out.

I guess, college is really like, a way out of boredom. Sure it gets to your nerves sometimes, but hey, it keeps my mind stimulated, instead of rusting away.

I dont feel like writing anymore. I feel more like self destructing right now. can I?

Die, hypocrites, DIE!~

I got pissed with a few people today. I'm not pms-ing. I know i'm not.

I went to pyramid at 3 to watch "Ladder 49" with Aida...and.. Arvin. but he came like, 1 hour late. Again. I had to wait outside the theathre just for him, coz i couldn't just leave the ticket with anyone, right? ugh. An i just got to watch the last quater of the fuckin movie. And god, i missed a lot... that Pheonix guy is not bad, at all. I think it has to be the uniforms that they wear. Even Travolta looked pretty hot. haaaaha. He's old now... he was hot when he acted in "look who's talking"...hey, don't laugh. He was. It was a pretty moving story. The fact that this guy, have seen so many of his friends got injured, and he even lost his best friend, and he's been lucky untill one day he got trapped in the burning building... leaving his hot wife, and his two children behind. Forever. But hey, i need to watch that movie again. Thanks to a certain someone. Damn it. One can always repay money, or maybe deeds...but one can never repay time, you know.

After berbuka, i went for a drink with Dee, ( since shadz and fudge couldn't make it) we decided to just go the two of us. It was great letting our feelings of disatisfactions, and even joy, and sharing it. The tea was good, too. And the Naan as well as the Tandoori. Yumm. Its been a while since the last time just the both of us hung out. I pray hard that she will join us in Taylor's Mass Comm in January 2005. Yay! She'll be able to kick some asses of biatches and Bastards on campus. FuuuuCk them. Pi mampuih, la hang sumua.

Whats my plan for tomorrow? I'm bored out of my mind. Time tak holiday nak cuti sangat..ni dah cuti, tak tau nak buat apa. Haih~

Mission Impossible.

Today we're going back to the Kampung on my dad's side. Dont get me wrong, i still love the house, and my aunts (dad's sisters not his bros' wives), and some of my cousins. I love them. Let's pray for the best for our family.

Yesterday i was pretty pissed with ceratin people. Because one of em wanted the easy way out, and the other one came bloody late, and thought it was okay. And everything was to be done simultaneously. Hello! There's this thing called "Sacrifice" You can't do two or more things at the same time, when you're only human. And there's also a thing called "patience". If we rush things and take short cuts only, the content of the work will be ziltch . Coming late, is pretty much normal here in asia. Wait. make it, MALAYSIA. Its called the Malaysian Time, i believe. Fine. But NOT cool when you're bloody well late for, say, oh, 1 fucking hour! Honestly, I'm not always punctual either...But hey, but don't talk as if nothing happened, when you're actually an hour late, while we're fasting and we're suppossed to be handling our anger with care. My ass. Thank god, he has balls and brains to appologise, and check if I was mad. DUH.

Whatever, im okay now, i just needed to get that out of my systems.

pheww... I feel much much better, now. The thing about me is that i get pissed or effected easily, but i cool off easily, too. We Librans are like that. I think. Yeah. The HELP institution is having thier Battle Of the Bands on November 6th. Im still planning on how am I gonna go. My dad will kill me if he even finds out bout me going, on a Ramadhan night.Shit. Fudge offered me to sleep over at her place... but I'm segan lah. Haha...Can you imagine? Moi? Segan? hahahahaha . I bet its like, a Joke of the year, man.

Its 11:06 AM

No one is online, I'm pretty much bored. Oh yeah, THEY still have college! haha...have fun, people! But if they have college, they won't be free...and when they're not free, I won't be able to go out with them....and I'll end up brooding, and having a hard time to kill time...even if i use a knife. Haiya.

Pathetic.

11:25 AM

I'm all dressed up to go to college. Exams and classes are over, but we need to get the posters for the gig's audition up, and stamped by the admin. I'm just waiting for my mom to send me over.

I wanna go out and chill with friends, right now! But everybody is so busy with their new lives. Anybody who's free and bored, lemme know...we can go for a drink or something, after buka. PLEASE call.

This year's raya is gonna be different. My dad's Kampung is no longer a place for families to bond. It's more like a place for aunts/uncles/neices/nephews/cousins to bitch about other aunts/uncles/neices/nephews/cousins. Is that sad, or what. Eversince my Dad's parents are loooong gone, everybody is just being so hypocritic, and such back-stabbers. I hate it. Who does? They sure seem to like it.Fuck, I miss those times when us cousins and uncles and aunts and great grand uncles and aunts would go have outings...those were the times when everyone was still sincere and being honest with each other. Man, they're all major bitches. Most of em, at least. Siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedas.

On my mom's side, they're all over in Singapore. As far as i know, they have issues, too...but they handle it differently. I'm not playing favourites here...but at least i dont feel so left out, even though my mom has been living away from her biological family all her life. She was taken cared by her aunt... Her biological dad's younger sister. But we all feel apart of the family. They don't make us feel like they have a problem, and we're pulled into it.

Anyway, conclusion is, even families nowadays are like crap. extended families, especially. Its so sad. Actually, more like pathetic. uurgh.

A Proud Sister.

Im pooped today.

Came back from college, and went to the Bazaar...with Dee and Fudge. We were laughing the whole way to and from the bazaar...like crazy people. Then after we bought some food, we went to the field near fudge's place in 18, and played with the swings...the weather was pretty cool just now. We were talking bout having a picnic there...I was like, "JOM. Sahur sini skali..."haha.

Went to Parade with sis, until right about just, now. Went around to MPH, and she bought a story book. Im proud of her...She likes to read, now. ABOUT time.

I'm bored and i aint got nothin to do...so.........i wanna sleep lah.

Goodnight~

A High Level of Hyper-ness.

WooHOOooo. I think the tea in Mamak Bistro have ganja in it.My dad and I had their tea, and my mom had just hot Milo. By the time we got home, we watched America' Funniest Home Videos, both my dad and I were laughing our asses off, and we couldn't stop...My mom was like "ape ni? " I think i turned blue. Yeah. I still am... We were hyper!! woohooo. But it was fun.

Fudge called me up in the last minute and I followed her to the Bazaar Ramadhan...I had to drive, duhh. But we were laughing the whoooole way. We bumped into some people. Thats no suprise, aint it?

My air-cond is making some funny noises. Damn it. Its not time to service it yet.

Everybody at home is asleep now. I've got nothing to do, now that the exams are officially OVER! I can't get enough of it. You guys don't know how relieved i feel!

This hyperness shit better wear off fast. I need to be normal again.

WooHOOO!!

My finals are finally over. *sighhh* of relief.

I got up pretty late today compared to other days, and got to college just in time to walk slowly to the exam hall, while reading some crappy notes. Exam started at 11.30 am. Its a two hours paper, but i got out at 1 pm. Most of us did. Went to the lab to get the poster for the auditions for the "School Of Rock" done, and we did...Dwi is awesome. He's so creative, and nice and humble too. He prays like, 5 times a day and everthing...But he rocks! How often can u find a good decent guy, who is pretty much balanced today? Maybe hes not perfect, but whatever...He's goin back to Medan this week, right up until Raya...wahh...pasti Gembira, gitu!

I gotta run now...and i can't get over the fact that EXAMS ARE OVERRR!!!

Bright eyed me.

YAY! one more paper, tomorrow, and we're SO SO done for this semester! That was fast.. the last time i checked, I was still at the orientation...sheesh. Such a Freshie.

I cant wait to go out for buka tomorrow! i hope evrubody can make it tomorrow....pleeaasee do!!!I really really miss my old friends, and we NEED some time to spend together.

I'm feeling a little happy today, coz i saw a certain someone today...yeehoo! And the person waved and said hi. hhaiih~ Shit, i hope he wont be reading this.

Okay, i'll get a grip.

I'm debating wether or not i wanna drown myself in the ocean of people at the bizzare Bazaar...hmm..wait...lets not be stoOpid. DOH!

The Bizzaire Bazaar.

Today was a pretty O-kay day.

Woke up at 12....went online...................................and until about 3.30 pm, i did a bit of studying. Just a bit.

Later towards the evening, my sister and I followed my parents to find stuff to eat for us to berbuka.We went to USJ, then after we went all around it, we couldn't find anything, we went back to the Bazaar in SS 18.

We reached the Bazaar pretty late...by 6.30, but there were still stuff being sold..but at a bargain.I figured since it was late...i was sure that I wouldn't bump into anyone...boy, was i wrong.I bumped itno an OLD friend, Zaitul Akma...She was all like, "HILYAAAH!!" oh boy...

One good thing about these kinda places, i guess.., You're bound to meet with a whole lotta people...but thats also a bad thing.You're BOUND to meet those you don't want to either,huh... Its okay. Its all good.

What the 5 senses are for.

Everybody loves Nemo. Yeah im talking bout the fishie, Nemo. But eversince people actually "love" nemo, they go out and buy clown fishes to put it their tanks. And most fishies that they get for their tanks, are almost extinct. Whats gonna happen to the whole eco-system?! As it is, our whole planet is just screwd up....just..stop makin it worst!

I saw those salt water fishies in a pet shop in Ikano, and the fishies were beautiful with vibrant colours...but they dont look like they're alive. I mean like, hello! They dont belong in tanks! they're from the "big Blue". So many coral reefs are actually being destroyed to retrieve these treasures. For god's sake...just leave it as it is.

URGH.

this aint the only problem, aight. Duh. Jungles being torn down...honestly, I have never went into a jungle before i went for NS. And i was scared out of my pants. No shit. Hey im just another shallow city chick...no...i WAS.

And so, i made up so many types of excuses for me to escape the jungle excersises.But hell, the trainers just said..."nahh..its okay lah...just go in and u just stay there...it'll be okay."Fine. and so i went in...and i was soo scared that i even almost barfed. So we reached our check point, and we had to build our own shack. While we were builing it, i had found so many different type of sights and sounds of the jungle..it was so soothing. The greeneries....the blissful sounds... I also learnt to appreciate the different tastes and textures of the jungle.Trust me. I did. There was this one fruit...Bertam fruit.It has skin like the salak fruit..scaley and brownish in colour.The flesh smells like rambutan, but it tastes like the coconut flesh. Really unique. And there was this one leech which looked like Flubber...it was soooooo cute. That was the very first leech ive seen. That was how shallow and amazingly lost i was. sheesh.

So i guess we just gotta let the mass learn and see things for themselves. Not just telling them about it. Let them experience it. Let them see, touch, smell, hear and taste the whole experience. well... its sad to see those fishies though.And they're selling at a very very high price.Thats very unfair.They probably just caught the fish and sell it off. thats a 100% profit, dammit.

Well, people...if yall love nemo, dont buy no nemo.

First day of the Ramadhan...

Today is the first day of the month of Ramadhan.

It feels so long...The first day is always much difficult than other days. But its okay.

Any friends of mine who are free this weekend, please hook me up... i need to get out. My finals are killing me!!! We're already gonna printand post up the posters for the gig soon...and im so freaking excited. Those of you interested, lemme know, i'll try get you the forms for the auditions. Auditions will be on the 30th Nov 2004. Forms should be collected from aida or me, (preferably from aida) on the 17th nov and be returened by the 24th November.

I cant wait till finals are over... juusstt... 4 more daaayyss............

My Optical aid.

nothing is as it seems
to the naked eye...
Optical illusions play us
every where...
Help me see through deceits
show me...make me see.

If i cant see, i need optical aids.

The world is Full of Irony

Its really ironic.

Turns out that Superman ain't that Super after all. But of course Christopher Reeve's had his spirit going on like superman, all right? His strong will amazes me. He isn't the only one who is strong willed. My Grandmom had colon cancer, and she passed away about 5 or 6 years ago. She was one of the most strong willed person i know. Everyday, without fail, she wakes up without looking sick or literally dying. Life has to go on. She was loved by everybody. Even during her funeral, people from all over the country came to see her. Politicians, Family Friends, Extended Families...of all races. I adore her for that. Al-Fatihah.

Oh well,
thats nothing new, really. Nothing is as it seems. Its called "perception". i studied that in human behaviours. Perception is, an Individual's implict personality theory forms the perception based on which Characteristics go with which other characteristics.Its a subconscious phenomenon. So, if someone calls you a very unpleasant name for example .."Bitch!" or "Bastard" or maybe even "poser!"...stop, dont get mad just yet. Check yourself..do you potray yourslef to be one? if no is the answer, check if THEY potray themselves to be one...if yes, i guess you have the right to diss them back!

What am i doing here?!

Its 11 pm, and ive got exams tomorrow...what am i doing?! doing this.

Zul suruh! Sotong.
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Dengan ini, Setelah diperkenankan, duli-duli, yang maha mulia... Ditetapkan... yakni, tarikh 1 ramadhan jatuh pada esok hari...bersamaan dengan 15 oktober, 2004. sekian... wassalamualaikum...warahmatullah..